31.12.13

2013 // A Look Back



I'm linking up with Nicole from Three 31 for her annual year end link-up. It's been one crazy year, in a good way and a bad way.


What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
Started THREE, count 'em, three businesses. One was a failure (RIP Maple Bluebonnet), but two are still here and kicking: my Mary Kay Business and LEC. 

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
For a while, I was still going to the gym every day! I still go every chance I get, but I'm made time in my schedule next semester to make sure I get there every day. I've got a goal to be a certain dress size by graduation (December 2015), so, I need to get to work.
This year, I just want to try and eat better. For the sake of my weight and my thyroid.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I can think of.

Did anyone close to you die?
Good Lord, no. 

What countries did you visit?
Uh... none.

What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
A little organization. I also feel like something big romantically will happen. I feel like a lot of things will come to me in 2014.

What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory?
April 24th. The day I signed my Mary Kay agreement. I was in a really bad mood and spent most of the day in bed until I got a phone call from this number I'd never seen before. On the other end of the line was Shelley, my Mary Kay director, and she has changed my life in so many good ways.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I feel like I have a lot, but I think the biggest achievement this year was finally pushing enough to get the help I really need, even if it was just for a summer. 

What was your biggest failure?
Math. Definitely math. 

Did you suffer illness or injury?
HAHAH. I legitimately laughed out loud at this one. Back in November, I took my head out on the trunk door of my friend's car and a week later, ended up in the ER. When I hit my head, I strained my neck, and a week later when I went home, my neck became stiff after three hours of driving back to Huntsville. 

What was the best thing you bought?
The camera lens that I still haven't bought yet. Christmas present! 

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My friend, Andrew. That kid never loses his sh--. Like, seriously, he's the most calm person I know. Which is a little scary, but still. 

Where did most of your money go?
Sam Houston State University. 

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The list goes on and on! Finally starting a photography business, deciding to self-publish, Mary Kay. It was a pretty good year. 

What song will always remind you of 2013?
uh.... uh.... This is going to sound RIDICULOUSLY CHEESY, but just go with me on it. "Let It Go" by Idina Menzel from the movie, Frozen. Like, the first time I heard it, I just cried, because this whole year has been about letting go of people's judgements and allowing myself to live my life the way God wants me to.
Compared to this time last year, are you:

Happier or sadder?
Happier, the end of the year was MESSY. 

Thinner or fatter?
Fatter, but overall, I gained less weight this year than last year. 

Richer or poorer?
Poorer. I'm in college. 

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Prayer.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Wasting time.

How will you be spending Christmas?
In Austin with a really big family. 

Did you fall in love in 2013?
Well, not really, unless you ask my friends who think I never really fell out of it from last year. But, no, I did not. 

How many one-night stands?
None.

Who were your best friends?
Allie, Andrew, Leslie, Eileen, Ashley. 

What thing did you do that was meaningful to others?
Mary Kay. Eileen is a team member of mine and I remember her telling me that she'd thought about joining before (her mom was a Mary Kay consultant), but she didn't think girls our age could do Mary Kay. Until she met me. So, that meant a lot. 

What were your favorite TV programs?
Castle -duh. Nashville and Scandal. 

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Hate is a really strong word, so no. 

What was the best book you read in 2013?
More like what book did I read period? I read, like, five. But, probably Mary Kay's book that came in our starter kit. 

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Oh..... I don't know. I spent most of the year listening to Hunter Hayes! 

What did you want and get?
Help for my depression. 

What did you want but did NOT get?
Long term help. The help was only this summer.

What was your favorite film of this year?
A toss up between Iron Man 3, Thor, and Frozen.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Spent the morning at home, drove back to Huntsville, and hung out with Andrew. I turned the big 2-0. 

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A little bit of finically stability. I really struggled this year. 

What kept you sane?
Writing books. Which most people would argue as something only insane people do. 

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hunter Hayes. <3

What political issue stirred you the most?
Obamacare and the government shut down.

Who did you miss?
My friend, Evie. I know that ending our friendship was the best thing for both of us, but that doesn't mean I don't think about her from time to time and hope she's doing well. 

Who was the best new person you met this year?
Leslie and Eileen. I can't pick! 

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
People always expect you to put them first. Even when you need to put yourself first for a little bit. 

Quote that sums up your year:
“Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn't know it so it goes on flying anyway.” 
― Mary Kay Ash

30.12.13

fresh slate


As I'm writing this blog post, I'm sitting in the allergist's waiting area, waiting for them to call my name to go get my shots. After this semester, I kind of fell off the wagon on getting my allergy shots, so the price I pay is coming every week over the semester break.

A lot like my shots, I feel like I've fallen off the wagon with blogging.  Now, I could sit here and contemplate why that may be, but I know exactly why that is.

You see, over the semester, I had a really bad experience with a photography customer. There was miscommunication and overall, we both made some bad decisions about it. I'm not playing victim, I accept that I did things wrong, but the overall experience kind of ruined photography for me.

I know they say not to let one person get you down, but it really made me think if this was my calling. And even after that, when I did my cousin's senior pictures and everyone loved them, I really questioned whether it was what I wanted to do.

Since my cousin's shoot and the fiasco in Huntsville, I've touched my camera once - to do a shoot with my friend, Allie. Beyond that, nothing.

While I've been questioning this idea of perusing photography, I found myself turning back to the one thing I know best: writing. I've been rewriting The Assassin like a mad woman, placing all my time and talent into that. And while it's great that I've been writing a lot, I feel like many other aspects of my life suffered because of it.

Even within writing, I've begun questioning things. Is self-publishing really the way I want to go? Or do I find a smaller publisher and delay the release a few years? I've done a lot of soul searching these past few weeks.

2013 was a big year. 2014 looks like it's going to be bigger. I've got plans to release The Assassin in July, I want to make my Mary Kay sales director debut in August (I've got a lot of work to do on that one! Only 9 more girls to go and help build a team!), and I'm really pushing myself to make better choices about my body.

At the end of November/beginning of December, I suffered some really bad stomach pains. I couldn't eat without feeling sick. It's better now that I'm staying at home, but I realized I can't keep eating like a college kid. So, obviously I'm going to have to make better food choices, cook more at home. I'm also going to the gym every few days with hope of going every day once I get back.

2104 needs to be a fresh slate with my life and my career. The breakdowns, the doubts, the depression, I'm going to do my bed to leave them all behind in 2014.

At least that's the plan.

18.12.13

ADRIANA | SENIOR 2014






Over Thanksgiving break, I got to do a senior session for my cousin, Adriana. Here's just a few of the pictures from our session. We split the session into two, with two locations and multiple wardrobe changes!!

I really loved the way these came out, especially the ones at the top when she's in the black top. The lighting was phenomenal that day! This very last picture was a total experiment. The leaves were every where, and I really wanted to try and see how these pictures would turn out if she threw the leaves. There were a few that didn't come out great - what else do you expect mid throw? - but I love the way most of them came out.

15.12.13

Some Bitter Truths

It's been one heck of a month. I've made a lot of self realizations and it's time to share some.

+the weight won't fall off if I don't get my butt to the gym every day and stop eating crap
+photography is fun behind the camera. Behind the computer screen? Ha, no. Forget that. I'm done.
+I'm craving something new, a new line of thought, a new place or space. New.
+this whole self-publishing thing? It's gonna be brutal. But I really, really, REALLY need it to work because I realized this is what I know. I don't want to spend the rest of my life working on PR campaigns. I want to be writing books.
+Student loans will be the death of me. I'm already in way over my head and I still have four semesters to go.


Needless to say, it's been a weird month.

13.12.13

TIGF :: Things I'm Grateful For


Every week, we take time to celebrate the things we're grateful for with Ashley from Hello Nature. 


finals being OVER!!! . perfect score on my solo production project . passing math . two Mary Kay parties . a month's vacation . the opportunity to jump start my Mary Kay career again . being home . Christmas bonuses from work . free yogurt in the morning . free limeade in the afternoon . passing all my classes . getting to see Mary Kay sisters I haven't seen since I moved . big plans that I have up my sleeves . going to Bible study with my mom . a warm heater and lots of blankets during this cold december . compliments on how great my skin is looking recently . finding it easier to talk to the people I care about the most . my mom . slowly getting my appetite back . and being able to just be alive in this crazy day in age 


What are you thankful for this week? 

9.12.13

two words




two words:
finals week.
peace out.

2.12.13

December Goals


Wow. Where did November go? Even though I know life goes at a bazillion miles per hour, every time I switch the calendar, I'm still floored by how fast the month with. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was sitting here writing November goals?!

November was a BIG month in a bunch of ways. 20 years. Hunter Hayes. About twenty papers. Starting a new job. Really seeing LEC take off. November 2013 was one for the books. 
While all that good stuff happened, bad stuff happened too. I was bogged down with stress and had a bunch of breakdowns. My car was broken into. The door handle on my driver's side broke a few days later. 

There's only one big thing this month (besides Christmas). 

FINALS!!!

In some ways, I am MORE than ready for next week to come. I'm sick of all my classes and I'm ready to be like "I'm done!" My last final is Thursday afternoon and the minute I am done, I'm getting in my car and heading back to DFW. Funny how much I go home now. Any excuse is a good excuse to go home for me. Huntsville just has nothing to offer. 

So, if I'm gone for the next week and a halfish, I'll either be buried in studying or buried in my book. I think I've finally reached the point where the rest of it can be tweaked (I re-wrote the first 20K), which means I think I can finish it in the next three weeks (Cause once I get home, that is ALL I will be doing #hellohermitworld).

And, without further ado, here are my goals this month:

Actually, last month's goals: 

NOVEMBER GOALS:

Start my new job
Find new locations in both Huntsville and Dallas for photoshoots
continue updating my portfolio with old pictures (as I grow my portfolio with updated pictures, I'll take these all down)
Senior shoot in Dallas
Mini-shoot in Huntsville
Learn to manage my time better
Pray a little bit more
Get stinking organized
Do more research on photography businesses
Go to the gym two or three times a week
Read at least two books (I join college and I never read anymore)
Finish or be really close to finishing this round of edits
Book cover!

So, I was going down the list and thinking "man, I did really well!" And then I didn't xD So, this month's goals:

DECEMBER GOALS:

My Mass Comm project (today!)
Study for finals
Continue journalling every night
Read every night (started The Hunger Games again last night) 
More praying this advent season
Organize and deep clean my bedroom before I leave for a month
Edit all my pictures
feature pictures on the photography blog
Save some money
pick up on Mary Kay again (school kind of bogged me down)
Plan Mass Music for long term.
Finish this round of edits for The Assassin
book cover!!! (for real this time)


What's on your goal list this month? 

28.11.13

TIGF: Thanksgiving Edition



Sharing what we're grateful for every week with Ashley from After Nine to Five. 
Let us know what you're grateful for too.


Yes, I know it's not Friday, but it's Thursday and it's Thanksgiving, so close enough! 


It's been a chaotic year, it's been a messy year, but I am still here, and honestly, that in itself is a reason to be thankful. But there are so many more things that I am grateful for.


Family: My family and I have really become closer (at least in my opinion) and I am so happy that I have them. I cherish every weekend I get to spend with them. They're my home, the people I can be myself around. The people I can be loud and goofy with and I fit in perfectly.

Friends: Call them my extended family, but I've really learned a lot about friendship this year. Whether it's fun trips home or Castle dates, these friends have really been there for me in my darkest hours and I would not replace them for the world.

Self-Employment: It's hard in a college town, but I've met some amazing people and it is so rewarding. Whether it's Mary Kay and making a woman feel beautiful when she forgot she could, or it's my photography and capturing people in their life, I'm so blessed to take these skills and forge a career and a life off of them.

Life: I feel like every year, I just continue to grow as a person and learn more life lessons, both the hard and the fun. But you only have one life to live and I don't want to waste it, that's for sure. And I certainly don't feel like I am.

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours! 

25.11.13

Hunter Hayes

photo credit: 99.5 The Wolf DFW 
photo credit: 99.5 The Wolf DFW

Friday night, Amy and I traveled down to Grand Prairie (which is only, like, 30 minutes away) through the cold and the rain and slush to go see Hunter Hayes. If you've read my blog, you probably know that I may just a little bit too much of a fan girl. ;) I spent this whole summer listening to his album driving to Downtown Dallas every day. 

"Storm Warning" is my song with my sister. We've spent countless car trips singing that song at the top of our lungs, even when other people are in the car. So, this summer when he announced that he was coming to Dallas, I knew I had to get tickets for Amy and myself. But, because I didn't get my act together, we got seats way up there.


And that's with it zoomed in. I left Suzanne in the car thinking she wouldn't be allowed, but in hindsight, I would have been fine taking her in. No one cared and the pictures would have been way better. 

Despite the fact that we were way in the top, Amy and I still had a great time. We sang, we danced, we played air guitar on "More Than I Should", and we laughed at his jokes. Considering that I never get to hang out with my baby sister anymore, spending all that time with her Friday night was really great. Now that I don't live at home anymore, I miss her a lot and I cherish all the silly shenanigans we do when we are together. 

That and Hunter Hayes is amazing. Just watching him, you can tell that he absolutely loves what he does and it's infectious. He's up there running around, goofing off, singing twenty songs, and he had the whole music hall doing the same. 

Here's a few videos of a few songs. Sorry for the craptastic quality and the singing of teenaged (and a twenty year-old) females. 




"Where We Left Off" is a song Hunter wrote for the movie, Act of Valor. It's a tribute to the service men and women of our great nation and it was phenomenal. 


This one is called "In a Song" and the first time I ever heard it, I had to stop and just take it in because it was so true. anytime something rough happens in my life, I turn to music to pick me up and this song talks about that. I loved the acoustic way he did it, added something new to the song. 


All in all, it was a fantastic experience. I'm glad I got to share it with my little sister, and I told her we'd get better seats next time. 

20.11.13

burned out

it's been quite around here. And for good reason. 

I'm totally completely burned out.

I'm running on "e", just trying to survive the end of the semester. Trying to get to thanksgiving break to recharge myself and just take a break. 

I feel like I've hit a snag in life and I absolutely hate it. One of my biggest fears in life is the fear of stagnation, just staying the same all the time. 

And I think I've finally succumbed to it. Maybe it's the inspiration in my life. I see people succeeding, getting out there, falling in love, having everything I could possibly want in my life right now.

And I don't have any of it. 

Lately I've felt lazy, fat, unimportant, useless. Just taking up space.

Don't get me wrong, I feel like this a lot, but maybe now, instead of fighting it, I've just come to accept it. I'm struggling finically, I'm racking up student loan debts like crazy (and I'm not even halfway done with college yet). I'm loathing Huntsville, taking every opportunity to be home in Dallas because there are people there. 

I feel alone here. Yes, there are people who care, I know there are, but I've gotten to a point where I just feel like needing people to be there for me is a waste of time for them and I don't want to be a waste. 

It's moments like this that I feel the monster taking over again. That damn monster inside me, depression. It's awful. 

What do you do when you get to the point where you feel like there's nothing worth fighting for? Cause I'm pretty much at that point. 

15.11.13

TIGF :: Things I'm Grateful For



Sharing what we’re grateful for every Friday with Ashely and Nathan from After Nine to Five!
Feel free to share what you’re grateful for in the comments or in a post of your own!

car repair places open on Saturdays | the fact that nothing was stolen from my car | work | TV shows I can get lost in for a few hours in | a window that works so I can open my door from the outside | finding new energy in my Mary Kay business | nice, long hugs from close friends | grapes | the last of the pumpkin pie dip | therapeutic drives singing at the top of my lungs | a real good cry | a little facial relief(at least for now) | motivation to get organized | no allergies! | cancelled classes | trips home


What are you thankful for this week? 

12.11.13

Let's Get Real Here

photo credit //


It's time to get real here. Like, honest to goodness, no one wants to hear the sad truth kind of real. 

It doesn't take a genius to realize that things are slow and kind of quite around here. And it makes me sad, it really does.

But y'all, life is throwing me curveball after curveball. A few weeks ago, I went to the ER for severe neck pains (it was just a side-effect of hitting my head on the trunk door), and I spent two days after sleeping thanks to some lovely hydrocodone to thank for that.

I started a new job the same week, and while it's not a lot, it's still an adjustment on my schedule and life. I'm loving it, but it was something I was not anticipating. 

Then this weekend, that son of a bitch (it's my blog, I can cuss if I want to) broke into my car and my whole weekend of productivity went down the drain (hello trip to Houston!). 

And all of that has happened in the past three weeks. I haven't been home since any of that happened. But I am going home this weekend, and I've got a senior shoot and birthday celebrations (TWENTY PEOPLE. I AM ONLY FOUR DAYS AWAY FROM NOT BEING A TEENAGER!).

On top of that is my real job called being a student. It seems like every week I'm cranking out two or three papers, usually back to back (last week I wrote two papers in a day). I have three to four tests a week, multiple projects and numerous papers.

On top of that, I'm going home this weekend for my birthday, next weekend for the Hunter Hayes concert (HECK YES!) and then I have to come back to Huntsville for class for two days before I go back to Dallas for Thanksgiving. 

After Thanksgiving, we have one week of classes and then finals. After finals, I'll be, like, 45% done with my college career (graduation goal is December 2015 - I should graduate May 2016). 

On top of trying to edit a book for publication (Which is kind of crashing and burning), I literally have no time left. I'm trying to wrap my mind around how the hell I do everything I do. And I can't come up with a good answer because I don't think there is one. 

All of this is leaving me exhausted. I took a nap at 6:45 last night night cause I couldn't stay awake. I feel like many more of those naps will be happening soon. I'm not surviving otherwise. 

Needless to say, if I'm not here for the rest of the month (or the first two weeks of next month), you now know why. 

Now excuse me while I go to math class. 

10.11.13

Violated

I was lucky enough to grow up in a super safe city, like, I think it's considered one of the ten safest cities in America...? Ok, correction, one of the top fifty safest cities in America.

So, needless to say, I grew up where crime didn't exist. Crime just didn't exist. It's ok to walk outside at night, it's okay to feel safe there.

Yet, maybe my obsession with crime and Investigation Discovery, plus a natural paranoia, doesn't make me feel totally safe. I'm always on my guard.

And Saturday morning, not even my paranoia could predict what was coming. All my roommates went to their lake house for the weekend, leaving me alone. Whatever, I threw the top lock, locked my bedroom door and slept with my pepper spray. 

At 4:15 in the morning, I was abruptly awoken by the sound of a car alarm going off. I grabbed my keys and ran to my roommate's bedroom (it looks out onto the street). I didn't see anything, and since I didn't see anything, I assumed it was some stupid college kids who couldn't figure out where the panic button on their key chain was.

5:20 AM rolls around and my phone rings. It's one of my roommates, telling me she is coming home in half an hour and to unlock the door.

I unlock the door and ten minutes later, I hear the sound of someone walking in. I text her to make sure it's her, telling her I "have a slight paranoia about people breaking and entering." 

ha.

ha.

ha. haha. 

If only I had known then.

flash forward to ten in the morning. I'm walking to my car to go pick up my friend. I go one way, get halfway down the road when a cop car turns the corner and I remember that I didn't park over there (parking is hard at my complex). 

The cop car passes me and pulls up to another stretch of parking. I parked over there, but on the back side, so I pass the cop car, the cop and the two poor college kids standing next to their broken in passenger seat window. 

Walked down to my car, turned to the drivers side and stopped.

And the proceeded to walk right back to the cop and inform her that my car had been attacked too. 

Thankfully, nothing was stolen. But they did go through my glove compartment and my middle console and they trashed the front seat of the car. Everything in my glove compartment and console, they took and threw out.

There was glass everywhere. In the parking spot, under the door, on the floor mat, and most of it was the driver's seat. 

When I drove to Houston to get it fixed, I had to sit on my sun visor for the windshield. 

It's the first time something like this has happened to me, and it's scary. Especially being alone. I keep my personal things private and I'm a private person in someways. And this kid just totally broke through that.

I've spent most of the weekend processing what happened and what I can do to keep it from happening again. I'm planning to thoroughly clean out my car tomorrow so that if the kid comes back for round two, there won't be anything worth trashing it for. 

I guess the moral of this story is, be careful, there's scary stuff out there looking to get into your head and your heart.

Just be careful, don't leave valuable stuff where people can see it. 

5.11.13

Bookish Confessions

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So, today was supposed to be the day I released the The Assassin cover. The final one. The one that you'd see when you bought the book.

Obviously, that didn't happen. 

In fact, I still need to take the picture for the book cover. It's been a problem getting all the things to work out together to get the picture.

I promise, by the end of the year, you'll have a pretty cover. I have a vague idea of what I want the cover to look like, and if this idea goes as planned, it'll be a little bit different than the rest of the covers, but I still have hope that it'll look great and stay within the idea of The Assassin. 

Lately, I've been really thinking big for the whole series. Earlier this semester, thanks to Netflix, I got hooked on the wonderful TV show, Scandal, and I feel like it's added a much more politicalized element to the series. And considering that the book takes place in Washington DC, I feel okay with this fact. 

Also on my mind is the idea of something totally different in my writing life. I had a rough idea a few months ago about a chick-lit book. Something light and happy. It's still something I want to try and attempt, but I don't know how well it would work out. 

I also don't know what I'll work on after I finally finish The Assassin. It's weird to think - in a few months, I'll be totally, completely done with this book. This part of the story. I'll have closed the book (no pun intended) on that book. 

After pouring six years of my life into it, I'll be sad to see it go. But I'll be excited to see it fly on it's own. 

Just a few more months, y'all. It's crazy. Someone pinch me, please?

4.11.13

November Goals



Oh my gosh, y'all, it's November! NOVEMBER! In 13 days, I'll no longer be a teenager!! Man, it's a busy, busy month! So, if I fall off the side of the earth and this place gets a little quiet, that's why.

This month, I'll spend three weekends in a row back in Dallas, two weekends in Huntsville and a whole lot of time going up and down I-45.

Once I get through this month, I'll come back the Sunday after Thanksgiving, have a week of classes and then finals week. I feel like I just moved back to Huntsville and I still feel like I haven't unpacked all my stuff from my last house move.

And, last but not least, Amy and I get to go see Hunter Hayes this month in Dallas. I'm really excited to be able to spend the night with my little sister and have it just be us. I never get to just hang out with her anymore, even when I am visiting at home, so she'll be stuck with me for a whole night. Mwhahaha (Love you, Amy!).

I'm also dying to spend more time with my hands on my camera, some hopefully I'll get to do photoshoots here in Huntsville and I have at least one booked back in DFW for when I go home.

Needless to say, October was busy but November is gonna be gone in a blink of an eye! But, I have a lot of things I want to do and a lot of goals I will accomplish this month.




OCTOBER GOALS

RED JACKET
Rebrand old photos from MBB to LEC  - work in progress. I literally started this at 9PM Halloween night 
Add 3 people to my Mary Kay team (I say this every month, but my business is on FIRE lately)
BOOK COVER
Edit (Have completed, digital copy of edits)
start going back to the gym (did this yesterday. Got a parking ticket while I was there)
Find new photo locations in both Flower Mound and Huntsville
Talk to one person about Mary Kay everyday
Do some research about a new camera lens
Get on target for my Chevy Cruze (or the cash)
Midterms
Photos from the Special Olympics event I'm going to next weekend
Complete my MCOM 2381 project



November Goals

Start my new job
Find new locations in both Huntsville and Dallas for photoshoots
continue updating my portfolio with old pictures (as I grow my portfolio with updated pictures, I'll take these all down)
Senior shoot in Dallas
Mini-shoot in Huntsville
Learn to manage my time better
Pray a little bit more
Get stinking organized
Do more research on photography businesses
Go to the gym two or three times a week
Read at least two books (I join college and I never read anymore)
Finish or be really close to finishing this round of edits
Book cover!

1.11.13

TIGF :: Things I'm Grateful For


Sharing what we’re grateful for every Friday with Ashely and Nathan from After Nine to Five!
Feel free to share what you’re grateful for in the comments or in a post of your own!


going over math with dad last weekend . not having serious neck injuries after I hit my head . really nice pain killers . long naps . thunderstorms all night long . netflix . better understanding of how the heck I'm publishing The Assassin . pizza . unexpected visits from friends . test grades that are better than the last one . a brand new design . a better understanding what I'm going to do with my life . TV shows . long term plotting for books . a decision that after The Assassin is published I'll work on something new . updating my photography website . days that are so nice, i open the window all day long


What are you thankful for this week? 

31.10.13

a little flower of hope


Last weekend, I got to take the three and a half hour trip north to go home for the weekend. Yesterday was my dad's birthday, so I was up there to celebrate and we had family portraits done for our church directory.

It rained all day Saturday. But during a brief break in the rain, I snuck outside to take pictures. I found this flower in the backyard, by the driveway, and it was so bright and vivid, I couldn't not take a picture.

Despite the fact that it's been cold and it rained all weekend, that flower marched on and was still gorgeous and refused to take a beat down.

Somedays, I feel beaten down, but I saw that flower and it gave me a little hope. To keep marching on and stay strong.

30.10.13

a fresh start



The past few months since the end of MBB and the beginning of LEC, I've really been struggling to find a design and a logo that represent me. I could never find a good solid idea that was ME.

I've gone back and forth on ideas, color schemes, logos, everything. But I think I've found what I want.  I originally wanted to go for a lighter blue and a shade a little bit more red, but I found this gorgeous color combination on Pinterest of navy and coral and it suddenly hit me, I needed it. I've seen the color combo many times before, but I feel like it's just hit in me in the face the past few days.  I added the beige as a soft color because quite frankly, I'm sick of grey. I wanted something bright and happy.

So, needless to say, I think this one is stay for a long while. And I couldn't be happier.

Oh, also, happy birthday to my daddy! Love him so much!

25.10.13

TIGF :: Things I'm Grateful For




Sharing what we’re grateful for every Friday with Ashely and Nathan from After Nine to Five!
Feel free to share what you’re grateful for in the comments or in a post of your own!


job offers . dinner with my aunt . long drives home! . finishing projects and being done with them . long conversations on the phone with great friends . walks at night through my complex . cancelled classes . new music to listen to . the wonderful weather . nice long weekends alone . new friends and bonding . clean closets and bathrooms . late night trips to walmart with lots of giggles . not having a concussion after I was hit in the head . hair to cover that bruise 

24.10.13

24

As I look at this picture, I'm realizing just how clear my skin is looking. AND I AM LOVING IT. (like, it's so clear, I didn't do ANY TOUCH UP ON MY FACE - and I never thought I would be able to say that).


Everyone has their lucky number. Mine has always been twenty-four. As a kid, in basketball, I always wanted to be 24 or the closest number to 24.

24 has also been a significant date in my life, especially in the past few years. Just a few examples?

1. May 24th - the day I got dumped (I always thought this was a bad sign, but now, in my wiser days, I realized I really dodged a bullet on that one!)

2. May 24th (a year later) - met my first roommate in college and one of my now closest friends on that day.

3. April 24th - Cassie Dreandry's birthday is April 24th. I swear, I did not plan that!

4. April 24th - I took a chance on life and signed my Mary Kay agreement on April 24th.

And now, it's been six months and I'm having a blast. 24 is my number and I'm pretty sure if I get married/engaged, it'll be when I'm 24. I hope.

Who knows, maybe I'll get married on the 24th? How funny would that be?

24 is my lucky number. What's yours?

23.10.13

Modesty

top: target // jeans: target // boots: macy's // necklace: mary kay // earrings: charming charlie



Maybe it's this old purity ring I wear on my finger, but I've always been a modest dresser. T-shirts are my go-to outfit, every day. But every now and then, you gotta spice it up a bit and look decent. But even my "looking decent" is pretty covered up. It was 85 degrees outside last week (add some massive humidity to it and you'll understand my pain), but here I was wearing riding boots.

Modesty is something that I've adapted both because of my faith and my wavering opinion of my own body. Yeah, I mean, I want to be pretty and such, but I've always run in the middle of the road in looks (at least I'd like to think so). I want people to be impressed by me, personally and what I'm doing with my life.

Being "sexy" looking isn't something on the top of my list (though if you ask some friends, I'm sure they'd say I'd have a boyfriend if it was :P). I believe modesty in a way is sexy. Waiting to expose it all to one special person, that makes you special, because you're willing to wait.

I'll always be a modest dresser.

And that's perfectly fine for me.

Oh, extra goodie today:

22.10.13

Popularity Contest



This post originally showed up on the Better Blogger Network's blog.
I’ve been blogging for three and a half years now, some may call me an expert, some may say I need to give it all up. I don’t have fabulous statistics, great page views, or a mega following.
I’d be lying if I said that doesn’t ever bother me. Sometimes it does. Sometimes I want to be blog famous and popular. I know a lot of big bloggers (at least those I perceive to be “big” bloggers). But after three years, I realized, it doesn’t matter.

Yes, it’s great to have fabulous stats and great page views – but that’s not what’s important in blogging. So many people have made blogging out as some kind of popularity contest – and it’s not. Blogging should be a representation of who you are. I’m in college, college is too big to have anyone be the most popular person on campus.
And even if there was, it certainly would not be me. I’m okay with that. In life and in blogging. Trying to be popular and cheating yourself in blogging (and in life), gets you nothing. Being true to yourself gives you the ability to look back later in life and see what happened in your life.

Life shouldn’t be a popularity contest. Neither should blogging. Both should be a reflection of the true you. So stay true to yourself and you’ll find your popularity is with those who are meant to be there for you.

21.10.13

Special Olympics State




Last Friday, after class, I jumped in my car and drove the hour west to College Station. Yes, my aunt lives there, but last weekend, Texas A&M hosted Texas Special Olympics for their Fall Classic. There were a bunch of sports including swimming. My brother, Bryan, participated in the state swimming competition.


Because it was so close, I couldn't not go. So, I got to spend the weekend with my family and the camera.

I also got to see an old high school friend, Sam. We actually sang together in the middle school choir and I always said "hi" to her at school. When she found out Bryan was my brother, she always asks my family about me.

It was a great weekend with my family, and I'm going home this next weekend, can't wait to see them all again.

18.10.13

Things I'm Grateful For :: TIGF


Every Friday, we gather together to celebrate the things we're grateful for from the few days. 


cooler weather . bonding time with new friends . sleeping in late . sharing Mary Kay with others . really good country music . a full tank of gas . seeing a director's debut party and getting all excited again . stepping out of my comfort zone again . a really good interview . reaching out and establishing communication in a group that really needs it . rain!! . Scandal, Nashville and Castle . a really warm bed to sleep in at night. 


What are you thankful for? 

17.10.13

One Month



Note: I am NOT going bald, despite what this picture seems to think.


I realized last night, I only have ONE month of being a teenager left. And then I realized between this and 21 Before 21 the other day, this is one-month countdown week to 20th birthday? I've done a lot in my teens and I can't believe there's only 31 days left. 

When my friend, Andrew, turned 20 earlier this year, I teased him about being old. Does this mean I'm gonna be old too? 

Well, I'm an old soul anyways. 

So, here's to one more month of being a teenager. The end of one chapter. 

It's been a big year (But lets talk about that next month, ok?)

So, here's to one more month. One more month.

Crazy, ain't it? 

Happy Thursday! Hopefully y'all are warm (nasty cold front came through Tuesday night) and have a great day! 

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