a new beginning

noticed anything that changed? Like maybe the site? Like the name?

Let me just start out by saying, I'm sad to see "pens and a camera lens" go, but it's just something that had to happen.
I'm trying to actually build my design business and having a design shop with one name and a blog with another just wasn't going to work. Beyond that, I feel like the new name is part of the next chapter in my life.

Yesterday was my last day of high school. In fact, in just a few minutes, the last kids (elementary) will be dismissed for the summer. Us seniors got out a day early because we're just that awesome.

Monday is graduation. Next Thursday and next Friday, I'll be off at freshman orientation. I've got bearkat camp (spirit camp) the first full week of August. Two weeks after that, I'll move for the first time in thirteen years.

But with the end of high school, I feel like this summer I'm going to be thrown into the world of adults, face first. They got tired of me dipping my toes in.

Which is why all these changes are here on the blog - to reflect the changes of my life.

Just a few changes to the blog:

  • new name/design
  • paid sponsorships
  • newsletter
  • updated pages
  • more guest bloggers
New name and design: This one is pretty obvious. It goes back with the whole new chapter of my life thing.
Paid Sponsorships: I'm bringing these back, but on the bright side, the most expensive one is only $10 and I'm offering 40% off. Just use the "New40" in the code box to save! 
Newsletter: Yes, I'm going to offer a newsletter. It'll be bi-weekly and will have updates from the blog, like popular posts and news on the shop. 
Subscribe to our newsletter
Updated Pages: I shouldn't say this seeing as I haven't actually imported the pages in (I put most of this in at 12 this morning, so they'll be up later today.
More Guest Bloggers: I think that sums itself up.

I hope y'all join me on this wonderful transition. I'm super excited! 


the wonderful sponsors!

because I am so busy with the end of school and graduation coming up, here's a quick post about the wonderful ladies (and a guy!) who sponsor my blog. I love them all!

Britt Renee:

Britt is super sweet, and I love the photos she takes! She and her boyfriend are also pretty cute together!

Be sure to follow her at:
her blog
her youtube
her twitter
her new instagram
her pinterest

And A DIY Life

Ashley + Nathan are such a sweet couple! They co-host TIGF with me every week, and they let me sponsor their blog! I worked with Ashley on her other blog, After Nine to Five. Ashley and Nathan also started the Better Blogger Network, so I work with these guys a lot, and I'm glad I've got the opportunity!


Kaytee Lauren

Kaytee is also a very sweet girl and I love her style. She also takes some pretty awesome pictures, if I do say so myself.  She's got amazing clothes and her hair is curly!

my little tulip

First: she's Canadian. They're pretty cool.
Second: She lives in the Netherlands. That's pretty awesome too.
Third: She has the most adorable blog title ever.

Want to sponsor next month? Email me. 


TIGF: Things I'm Grateful For

From And A DIY Life,

Sometimes we forget it’s the little things that matter in life and forget how easy it can be to be happy. So we’re making an effort to ensure that doesn’t happen by listing the things we’re grateful for/appreciate from the previous week every Friday.

Starting today, I'm co-hosting a link up with Ashley & Nathan at And a DIY Life. Every Friday we'll be doing Things I'm Grateful For, a post looking back on the things we're grateful for. 
I was really excited to join on in co-hosting, especially because in the months I've had, it's great to look back and smile at the little things I appreciate. 

Ninety Degree Days ♥ Getting my senior year book ♥ Going to meet my roommate ♥ visiting the place I'll call home for the next four years ♥ writing all week ♥ beating our AP teacher at trivial pursuit ♥ being less than two weeks away from graduating high school ♥ filling out my final transcript request (I'm almost a college kid!) ♥ the wonderful people I've met on BBN ♥ lunch with a friend who's home from college ♥ erasing "study for AP tests" from my white board to-do list

Link up with Ashley + Nathan and I and do your own TIGF post!


inside Cassie's mind

Cassie and I are in the same spot.
Ready to graduate.

You see, the first book doesn't take place in 2012, it takes place in the fall of 2010. Cassie and I are the same age, so whenever I get to the point where her story is in May 2012, she'll be restless and ready to get out of town too.

But Cassie's last few weeks of high school will be much more exciting than mine. I can't give away too many details since this is book eight, but she'll be dealing with some not so nice teenage boys.

But right now, in book one, Cassie is going through some pretty crazy stuff as it is. If you've read part of the book on wattpad or figment (updated both yesterday!) you know that Cassie is being followed by this guy, simply named D. (If you didn't know that, go read!) Well, I'm almost to the point where Cassie discovers who D is.

If you've read previous drafts of this book, you probably know who D is, but if you haven't, I really hope you haven't made the connection.

Cassie is frustrated because well, she doesn't know who D is.

If you've ever had a frustrated character camped out in your head, you know how annoying it can be. I'm ready for Cassie to put the two and two together and find out who D is already.

So, if you've read what's up, who do you think D is?


Time. Again.

With the end of AP testing, I've found myself with a lot of free time, and no nagging parents. Maybe it's because I don't actually haven any classes for next year - yet. Maybe it's because my parents realize I've shut off for the summer.

But, I've got all this time. A few months ago, it seemed like I had no time, and now, I've got too much time.

Then again, even with not studying anymore, I still feel like I have too much to do. I'm about to totally revamp the entire blog, top to bottom. A cleansing sort of. I've got finals next week, and I'm going down to SHSU Thursday to meet my roommate.

And graduation is in two weeks. TWO WEEKS!!! GUYS!!!! Do you know how badly I am freaking out over this?

No, you do not, because the only way I can convey my excitement is by jumping around and squealing for joy.

Yeah, feast on that mental image.

Actually don't. It isn't pretty.

Still, these next few weeks, I've got some fun stuff lined up, both in life and on the blog.

And, I actually get to write.

As soon as I find my outline book.

That also has my project in it for stats.....



a race to the end

In two weeks, (seriously, exactly two weeks from right now) I will be sitting on my couch. Done with high school.

No joke, it's in two weeks. I've got two weeks left of high school. I've already written about how the changes in my life are coming full speed ahead and how I'm ready for them.

And now I'm embracing them. There'll be some big changes coming to the blog in the next few weeks. New posts, new weekly series, some series are leaving, and so much more.

The next two weeks will be nothing except blogging, designing, writing and counting down the days until  graduation. (18 if you were counting.)

It's exciting. Next week I'm going back down to Sam Houston State to meet my roommate and tour the campus. I promise there will be photos this time! I promise!

The end of high school is knocking on my door, and I am so ready to open the door up and let it in!

Oh yeah, I'm done with AP testing too. :D


launched // the redhead's shop

The store has launched! Hope you stop by and check out what designs I offer. If you plan to order something, use the code "Grand25" to save 25% off of your order! Woohoo!


better blogger network

So, I haven't mentioned this, YET! Which actually really surprises me since I've been involved in it for a few weeks. Guys, let me invite you to join the Better Blogger Network!

the better blogger network was an idea by Ashley of After Nine to Five & And a DIY Life. This network is for anyone who's looking to build their blog and/or business. I've been involved for a little over a month , working on the social media team aka - Facebook and twitter. I cannot tell you how many times my phone goes off a day for the twitter account, it's crazy!

But seriously, if you want to meet some cool bloggers and learn ways to get more interactive with your readers, go ahead and join, it's already becoming a pretty awesome success, if I do say so myself.

And if you join, be sure to add me as a friend!


coming out of hiding

whoops, I swear, when I disappear for three days at a time, it's not on purpose! 
You see, since I last blogged to you wonderful peeps, I've....

  • had a three hour long review session over European History and it's craziness
  • taken a college level test (yay AP) over European History
  • Studied for three other AP tests
  • Worked....
  • And managed to sleep somewhere in between.

I think that's all.

But seriously guys, after Wednesday, it'll all be over.


You see, both of my classes this semester are AP classes, so after we take the AP test, there isn't really anything for us to learn... We had to learn it all before the test!

So seriously, you'll be hearing way more from me come Wednesday afternoon. Partly because I won't have to be studying from tests (which I'm doing right now, I just took a break) and... I'll have a new computer! (Hopefully)

Yes, graduation present is coming home, hopefully.

If I get it tonight, there'll be pictures, I promise. 

But, really, it's been quite a week. On top of studying for four AP tests and taking one, plus working, I managed to pick out my dorm this past week.... (I feel like I probably already mentioned this). 

Oh, and I think I've fixed the wrinkles in my outline for TA. Probably not going to get it done by graduation, but if I take my computer to school, I could. 

And, I still don't have the store finished.... Grr....

So, it may be Thursday before that opens. 

Guys..... only 23 days until I graduate....

23 days....

Yeah, it's gonna be a crazy couple of weeks. Between AP test and graduation, I'm going back down to Sam Houston to visit again and meet my roommate. 

And my brother is getting confirmed the night before the last day of school. And I'm singing at the mass. 

It's gonna be a crazy few weeks. 


dear foot

Dear foot, why are you so white despite the fact that I've worn nothing but flip-flops for the past week?

Dear May, why can't you go any faster so I can graduate?

Dear 2012, why can't it be August yet so I can start college?

Dear sky, PLEASE rain.

Dear AP tests, you are on!

Dear Cassie, please talk to me again, my mind feels empty without you talking.

Dear book, please tell me what's wrong with you. It makes me sad that you aren't working.

Dear summer, you better be good.

Dear ABC, you better renew Castle. No questions asked, just do it, okay? please and thank you.

Dear hair, can I please have one good hair day this week? Is that too much to ask?

Dear store, I really hope you do well. I really do!

Dear Amy, I know you're reading this, and I love you so, so much. I will miss you next year. <3

My dear reader, I love all of you! (Even the ones who I've yet to actually meet! *hint hint* introduce yourself to me!)



Change is inevitable, you can't escape it.

I'll admit, I've never been a fan of change, I'm too much of a routine person.

But lately, there's so much change about to hit at once....

And I'm excited for it.

Think, in the next three weeks..... I'm staring straight into the face of four AP tests. After I finish those, I have two weeks left of school before I graduate and never go back

Just think....

23 days until my last day of school, 27 until I graduate, 109 until I move to college, 113 days until I start my first class.

It'll be here so fast.

And it's a little freighting, I'll admit. Living away from my mom and dad for the first time? What isn't scary about that? I mean, I love my parents, a lot. .

But, I'm excited too. I'm in love with my college (SHSU, in case you forgot) and today I got to pick my dorm.

I promise there will be plenty of pictures once I move in.

Change is coming, and it's coming fast.

But for once, I think I'm ready for it.


grand opening

You guys are invited!



For questions or information, leave a comment below and I'll be happy to answer! 


dealing with my thyroid

I'm not sure if I ever mentioned this (I might have in my last post), but I suffer from hypothyroidism. read about it more here.

It's kind of frustrating. In the past month and a half, my appetite has grown a lot, and I feel like I'm constantly eating.

And at first, I started losing weight, a few weeks ago, I lost two pounds in a week.

And then last week, I gained them back. And today, I gained 5 more. Dx

Guess I need to get back out and play some tennis against the side of the house, huh.

It's frustrating to be stuck in this situation.

Hypothyroidism is something I'll have the rest of my life, and I guess I just needed to come clean about it.



This post isn't easy to write, but I feel like it needs to be said. No, I don't want your sympathy, I just need to let it out.

I'm mad. I'm frustrated. I'm ready to get out of my town and never come back.

I feel like I'm questioning everything about my life. 

I'm on the verge of graduation, but suddenly, it can't come soon enough, and I know I've said that before, but I'm serious this time. This isn't just wanting to be done with high school, this is if I don't get out of here, I'm not sure what will happen. Walking into school has seemed to become a living hell for me. I question who my friends are, and why I'm there.

I question my ability as a person, as a writer. I haven't opened my word document in almost a month. Okay, I have, but I haven't written in a month. I have no motivation. No one around me seems to care about my writing either, and it hurts. I used to thrive on the motivation, of knowing that people actually liked my books enough for me to keep writing.

That's not here anymore.

No one cares, and I'm starting to become a part of that crowd.

For almost a year, I've known what I was going to do with my life. Go to Sam Houston State, get a history degree, and teach.

But suddenly, that sounds like the stupidest plan, and I want to change my major.

I just don't know what to change it to. History made my parents proud because it was something I was somewhat good at. I've been in advanced placement social studies classes since sixth grade. I've never taken a regular social studies class.

But, my passion for history is slowly dying, and as much as I hate that, I'm not sure I want to keep it alive. I just don't have a passion anymore. Everything seems like work.

I've been praying, and praying, asking God what he's trying to tell me, but he's just not answering, and it makes me more mad.

I cried in two separate classes today because I just can't get it anymore. My stats grade has gone down the drain and I can't help it. I've studied for that class for four months now, and it just doesn't make sense. My last test, I only got seven answers right.

Studying and learning nothing is making it worse. I thought the whole point of studying was to learn more, not waste time with no results. My parents think I'm going to make a 3 on the AP exam. I'll be lucky to make a 2, I'm so far behind. Too far behind to ever catch up.

And, I'm eating like a pig lately. My thyroid disease is going out the wazhoo, and my thyroid is working about 1,000 times as hard as it's supposed to. No joke. It's leaving me more stressed out and tired. I come home and eat and sleep.

My life has become a vicious cycle that just refuses to end, and I'm starting to lose the will to fight the cycle.

inspire me tuesdays // lyrics

People say they are often inspired by quotes, but for me, lyrics are much more meaningful. So, enjoy some country lyrics, and look the songs up if you want.


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